Friday, October 23, 2009
as much as i hate to change the age in my profile box in my blog from a 20 to 21. guess i have to do so. but i still feeeeeel young!
gotta work out, all the party-ing and eating has fattened me.
" cos i'm waiting for you, give me answers, get me through"
Thursday, September 10, 2009
How can i change a friend's impression about me?
maybe i just can't. perhaps my ethical value as a friend is decreasing from zero to negative value.
Lets hope things get better.
" cos i'm waiting for you, give me answers, get me through"
behold, my 21st.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Your preconceived ideas of the "only child" being pampered would soon be shattered, when you hear this story of mine.
For those who know me, they know I'm the only child. For those who know me better, know that I have never had a birthday party. For those who know me inside out, know that my parents would never bother to pamper me nor suggest any activity for my 21st.
For a person who have never had any words of encouragement from his parents; nor any words of kindness like sorry or thank you, have lowered his expectations of his parents probably except a few. The mother who forced his son to empty his savings before receiving allowance for school was the same one who scolded him every single time he fell down.
The father who's words were few since my birth, could count the number of sentences he spoke to me, much less construct it into an actual conversation. Countless conversation-less car rides, soundless home talks and the various swear words and table smashing beatings he gave to his child when he was younger.
The mother who constantly compared her only son to his cousin, for the first time shuts up when he mentioned that his cousin is holding his 21st party soon.
Why can't i just die during the motorbike accident before i was born?
" cos i'm waiting for you, give me answers, get me through"
I've never been so alive
Thursday, June 11, 2009
this song played on tuesday, and this song reminded me of a certain someone especially on that day, not that things are okay between us, but she was really someone who fits the lyrics of the song.
and i liked the stanzas in italics.
Summer time and the wind is blowing
Outside in lower Chelsea
And I don't know
What I'm doing in the city
The sun is always in my eyes
It crashes through the windows
And I'm sleeping on the couch
When I came to visit you
That's when I knew
That I could never have you
I knew that before you did
Still I'm the one who's stupid
And there's this burning Like there's always been I've never been so alone And I've never been so alive Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by The cigarette ash flies in your eyes And you don't mind You smile And say the world it doesn't fit with you I don't believe you You're so serene Careening through the universe Your axis on a tilt You're guiltless and free I hope you take a piece of me with you And there are things I would like to do
That you don't believe in
I would like to build something
But you'll never see it happen
And there's this burning Like there's always been I've never been so alone And I've, never been so alive And there's this burning
aaa-haaa
there is this burning
ah ya ya
Where's the soul?
I wanna know
New York City's evil
The surface is everything
But I could never do that
Someone would see through that
And this is the last time
We'll be friends again
And I'll get over you
You wonder who I am
And there's this burning Just like there's always been I've never been so alone And I've, I've never been so alive So alive I go home to the coast
It starts to rain
I paddle out on the water
Alone
Taste the salt
And taste the pain
I'm not thinking of you again
Summer dies and swells rise
The sun goes down in my eyes
See this rolling wave
Darkly coming
To take me
home
And I've never been so alone
A-a-and I've never been so alive
" cos i'm waiting for you, give me answers, get me through"
sacrifices.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
School stress is slowly but surely seeping into me, i stress that i have never been stress about school work, especially assignments.
This road sure will be tough to carry on. lets hope i can finish this.
man, i don't even have time to swim, run, sun-tan anymore :S
" cos i'm waiting for you, give me answers, get me through"
Optical illusions
Sunday, May 10, 2009
A famous perceptual
illusion in which the brain switches between seeing a young girl and an old woman (or "wife" and "mother in law"). An anonymous German postcard from 1888 (left figure) depicts the image in its earliest known form, and a rendition on an advertisement for the Anchor Buggy Company from 1890 (center figure) provides another early example (IllusionWorks). For many years, the creator of this figure was thought to be British cartoonist W. E. Hill, who published it in 1915 in
Puck humor magazine, an American magazine inspired by the British magazine
Punch (right figure). However, Hill almost certainly adapted the figure from an original concept that was popular throughout the world on trading and puzzle cards.
SERIOUSLY. who sees old woman?
" cos i'm waiting for you, give me answers, get me through"
crazy feelings roller coaster(2)
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
like every rollercoaster... when the exhilarating(going down) process finishes.. it may just signify the end of your ride... or ... another long boring ride up to the peak.
i'm experiencing the long boring ride up, and realising that the scenery around may not be as beautiful as it seems, flaws appearing here and there.
or i'm actually slowing down and reaching the end of this ride.
i end up feeling more disappointed than happy actually, the few things that i value are disregarded.
let it fade.
as i wait.
" cos i'm waiting for you, give me answers, get me through"
A famous perceptual illusion in which the brain switches between seeing a young girl and an old woman (or "wife" and "mother in law"). An anonymous German postcard from 1888 (left figure) depicts the image in its earliest known form, and a rendition on an advertisement for the Anchor Buggy Company from 1890 (center figure) provides another early example (IllusionWorks). For many years, the creator of this figure was thought to be British cartoonist W. E. Hill, who published it in 1915 in Puck humor magazine, an American magazine inspired by the British magazine Punch (right figure). However, Hill almost certainly adapted the figure from an original concept that was popular throughout the world on trading and puzzle cards.